One step at a time, you’ll climb.

Next Level, Let’s Go!

North Star

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If you’re not careful, you might end up ordinary.

Seriously, I marvel at the things in my life daily — whether it’s taking my metamour’s dog for a hike with my boyfriend to give my husband some time with her, or the ability of two of my partners to instantly meet and figure out how to please me…with a threesome in a hotel room. (Isn’t that just the intersection of poly and kinky…exhibitionist threesomes? I think so.)

Quell the nerves and try it anyway…

I’ll be honest, I had some nerves about trying something new. I was the hinge, and I was not sure if my assessment and intuition would turn out to be right. There I was, in a delicate, intimate situation on that hotel bed. However, I do pay close attention these days to the people I let into my life, and my body. So I knew I had both checked the boxes and felt comfortable with them both. It was remarkable, and I won’t be too detailed here, but it fulfilled several fantasies at once.

Beyond the process of transgression, which I very much enjoy, there wasn’t really any qualms I had once we’d discussed the parameters. They both reassured me that they were there for me, and my pleasure. (Isn’t that remarkable, in itself? Delighted.) But the issue sometimes, with “the new” is feeling out of control due to the unknown.

If you’ve lived long enough, you’ve done stuff, and it gives you some confidence about moving through life more smoothly. Unexpected obstacles or mistakes occur, but you know enough to handle those. But new things still offer room to fear — fear of looking stupid, fear of not knowing if you’ll be overwhelmed, fear of something catching you by surprise and you’ll have to deal with both the new feelings and the inability to express what you need at that moment.

Thanks Jeff Goldblum!

Quite coincidentally, I watched the episode about birthdays last night on The World According to Jeff Goldblum and it provided some insight related to this. One of the reasons that it seems like time is moving faster as we get older is that we don’t lay down new memories like we did when we were children. Those basic skills that we now take for granted (eating, bathing, reading, riding a bike, tying shoes, driving a car, etc.) were once things we had to focus on…

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North Star

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